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Ok, so it's been a while since I posted here. Between pregnancy, work, pregnancy, sleep, and pregnancy, I haven't quite been in the mood to share. I'd often think,"Hey.. gotta post this. This is really good stuff." Then my stomach would say,"You want to get up close and personal with the rim of the toilet." That, or, my brain would randomly shut down and I'd pass out somewhere for a few hours.

Everyone says these are good signs. "Morning sickness means the hormones are in full effect." Terrific. I feel like shit, I'm tired, and I live in a twilight zone where I'm hungry and have cravings but risk getting sick if I actually approach the food.

This weekend was the first time I really invested a day into Discovery Health channel in a while. I used to watch it constantly and had to stop after the miscarriage due to the depression it brought on at the time. This Sunday, I found it intriguing and spent a few of my waking hours watching it. Bad move. All the weird pregnancies, unconventional births, and birth defect shows were telling me that this will either be a miserable failure or it would end in great pain. At one point, I informed Jim that I was getting an abortion because I couldn't go through with childbirth. He retorted that he's going to employ the parental control on the TV to lock me out of that station altogether. It's probably in my best interests.

Jim's really good about everything... very forthcoming about things that occured when his son was developing and coming about. I find it quite helpful at times. He did get a bit irritated around mid-week when I half jokingly told him I would drop the baby a lot and I wouldn't know what to do with it. I finally just came out and said I really had zero clue what would happen when he baby came. Do I entertain it? Can I leave it to go potty? He kind of laughed and explained how it will go... to the extent of,"It will sleep. It will cry when it's ready for you. You'll rediaper it, feed it, and put it back to bed. This lasts several months. Soon the discover they have hands and feet, which promptly go in their mouths." It all sounds very exciting. I know I'm not ready for this, but I don't have much of a choice now.

At least half the free world is pregnant along with me. I know quite a few couples right now who are multiplying and I can take comfort in it all. One is due Thanksgiving, one on Christmas, one mid-January, and I'm due end of January. Should prove interesting. At least I'm last so I can watch everyone else.